You Fill Me

You fill me

I find it's You who infinitely satisfies me fully,

who fuels and feeds my fire,

suppressing my flesh that so foolishly feasts on the foul fruits

that sometimes thrill me

but never fill me.

You surpass my finite mind that's flooded with 
frivolous facts, false fantasies and fruitless fiction.

Sating my starving soul,

going past fleeting infatuation to stirring up a passion

so that what I finally feel on the inside

is sheer satisfaction.

In fact, it's the lack

of love that lurked in my lonely unlucky past

that left me longing for something more than immoral lust.

I was looking for someone other than the normal loser 
whose mutterings were mere moralizing meanderings 
that never moved me. 
But more, a linguist whose lips could speak unlimited love languages 
to my languishing soul.

And that was You, immortal Lord.

You speak from your wealth of wisdom 

words that work to weave meaning and worth

into the worst of my situations. And like a wordsmith 

you spoke straight to my distracted and distraught heart so

I stopped straining to maintain a vain wish

that what I aimed and waited for couldn't be attained.

Because all of that actually abounds in You.

When your loving arms surround me 

it confounds the hurt and harm that has so marked me, 

countering the hissing lies of Satan that have hounded me

and fills my much too strong-willed, restless heart, 
now stilled and at rest from the wrestling match

between my past and Your promises.

My being abused used to trap me into utilizing the poor excuse

that others want to use me, and inevitably will bruise me,

But you so aptly infuse in me the beautiful and absolute truth 

that you are One in whom I can truly trust. 

So I refuse to maintain mumbling that mind-numbing mantra

stating maybe I was just meant to remain 
In an empty, sorry state of muted solitude.

I revel in the reality that in my Father's love 
I am found refreshingly fulfilled.

my famished heart feasting on His fathomless, fascinating fellowship.

It's You who fills me.

Finally. Fully. And forever.